I dont know what to do. i had a horrible session with t yesterday. i left crying, spent the evening crying, etc. i had a horrible day today. my dad yelled at me to "get out". twice. we had been arguing. i burst into tears and ran out the door. i learned a lot of things tonight: i learned that a one story building is not high enough to do enough damage. i learned that tears feel ice cold when the wind is blowing. i learned that seeing a light turn off is one of the most hope destroying things there is. my t said she would always be there for me, but then revoked that and said that her "being there" is not always immediate. what the heck does that mean?? (rhetorical question) I am hurting. and confused. and alone.