Thank you very much Peaches. Of course you are forgiven! Actually, I was never upset with you because I knew that you were being triggered. I am also sorry that I upset you.

I don't look at being triggered as a bad thing, though, because I think that it gives us good info. I'm wondering if this feeling like you are being left alone is part of what is keeping you from being able to process your trauma (as I write this I'm thinking that you already know this). From what you have written previously, if I remember correctly, you wrote that you do keep your T at a distance. If you are doing this you are keeping yourself alone with all of it? This is then reinforcing these bad memories for you?