I don't know what to tell you aside from the fact that I feel like this all the time - like a burden, unloved, alone, angry. The thing is, you don't get along with your mother all the time? Neither does any other teenage girl with their mother (I'm not a girl but I do have a sister who has gone through this). These things pass. It's not worth killing yourself over. It's like leed said, you're only seventeen. The best thing you can do is continue to fight to make your life better and become something great. Killing yourself won't make anything better. I'm sure your mother loves you even if you don't feel that way.