Well if you're concealing your true self and your emotions then you can't be your true self to others.

I watched an insteresting show last night monkey, about how we humans have more bacteria cells than we do human cells, we have more bacterial dna than we have human dna on and in our bodies. So it's interesting that we see ourselves as only human. Who are we, who are you?

So Monkey, then I read something else, about our atoms, and what keeps our atoms together as a whole unit, at least how we perceive it. It was talking about how we are in the middle world, so we only can percieve, imagine or see the middle world, but there is so much more to this, what if our atoms are really actually all connected, you to me, you to them?

Of course you are entiltiled to feelings, and maybe what you percieve , you being an outsider, really isn't so at all. Not to mention what you think others see when looking at you, even on video, is really probably not what you think.

If people saw me, I think they would all have very different perceptions. Would they match the way I see myself, maybe some, but probably not many or all. It doesn't even matter, their perception of me, has no bearing on who I am. And I don't even know the answer to that question. And that's ok.

I hope you can let your feelings show, and accept them for what they are.