I am so impatient. I took action to get myself into rehab. The particular rehab I am working toward is a free, christian, bible-based rehab in NJ. I did the pre-screening application on Wednesday, called to get the application, and now I am waiting on the application. It is possible I am not being impatient, maybe the disease is trying to talk me out of it, but I am getting concerned. After I get the application I have to fill it out, write a letter saying why I want to go there, get a letter from my doctor saying that I can come off my medication (they do not allow mind-altering medications at all), get it back to them, and then wait for up to 8 weeks (I have to call every week to stay on the waiting list). I guess I am scared to go, but know I want to and need it. I just hope this time starts to fly by and I get there soon!