The 'process can be so confusing at times. I do feel I have reached acceptance, that's not to say it doesn't still hurt. Like all healing, I swing from feeling relieved - that the destructive times are behind me - then I think of some good times...
Tonight I feel a bit of anger - that I allowed him to mess me about, mess with my head and feelings, continual lies and lots more....
I think loneliness is a big thing for me now, and trying to adjust. My children are adults, and busy with there own lives. I like being alone, but I can isolate too much... I want company, I don't want company lol - just rambling, but good to get it out!
Thanks everyone