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yeah I got the same thing...I don't want to feel bad about it though.

...it's been a while now I guess...couple years....but everytime I hospitalise myself in a panic....like

aaaaaah!!...real breakdown...emotional disaster...and not just sayin' that!

layin on the little bed in the little room..."really needing much much more attention"...than I can get and just laying there waitng for meals and meds and who knows what??

I decided it's better to freak out at home...than freak out more when I'm no where near it