i have an appt on the 11th of oct to speak to a clinical psychologist about bipolar for ssi and im frustrated. Im on three diff meds which are ok but it dont help me sleep, and i had to call my doc office 4 times to speak to him about sleeping medicine, and still havent spoken to him or the nurse practitioner .. Ive been awake atleast 67 hours with no sleep and im still going. I fear having to work again. I know it may sound a bit awkward but my past experience with being bipolar and working terrifies me. I cant even think about working without having a major anxiety pain in my stomach . I told my doc that if i were to work around people again and something goes wrong, that I would do alot of horrible things. Cant go into detail, but i hope everyone understands. I literally dont have two pennies, and i have to go sit around another doc to prove im bipolar. As if being stuffed with tegratol, latuda and lamotrigine isnt enough proff, and not to speak of being awake numerous hours, and feeling like im high af .. i dont even know why im writing this post, i did before i started now i have no clue