Clint ! Its ok to feel sorry for ourselves at times ..It allows all the pent up nonsense to get the hell out of our bodies and minds...

Personally when Im really really depressed I stop wanting everything to be better right now and being disappointed when it doesn't happen.. I have started wanting small things ..Like the energy to shower get dressed,and go outside .. Or fix myself something to eat or *gasp* drive to town to grocery shop .. etc etc . the small things start to turn into bigger things

Be kind to yourself and things will indeed improve.