It's Friday and I have the blues. feeling lousy about all the things I cant provide for my kids and that just brings on the feelings of not being a productive member of society or a good parent. I feel like my kids have gotten the short end of things because I am a sinleg parent on SSDI. I was so capable of providing alot better when working as a social worker, but now for the past 3 years I am nothing. I just want to escape the dissapointment I feel in myself and sleep it away. tried by taking 3 xanax and and a ambiem but sleep was short and the feelings sre still there. Hate disturbing my T with things like this even though she left it open for a phone session if yesterday session gets out of control. Don't have the energy to do that just want to hide under the blanket and not come out. the bad part is my 13 YO will be home soon and neesd to be fed and will want to talk and I really do not want to be bothered. What kind of parent does that make me? My daughter in NY going to school is having a hard time and wants to come home and I do not want it or feel I could handle it mentally. My daughter in FL who is in med school is trying to use the little money she has to furnish her place and is feeling the stress of school and wants my support, but I can not even support myself emotionally today. Just do not know what to do. The pills are looking real good right now and not the small amount I took earlier.