thanks for the update, john. consider this...it took years to get you to this point where you want to get clean and sober. if you really do want to go to this rehab the wait is far shorter than the time it took for you getting messed up...not busting you. been there and bought the t-shirt.

also if you're up the NJ way....livingrin in bensalem, pa is a wonderful rehab. http://www.livengrin.org/ i got sober there and it also has a strong alumni group. in addition they have open meetings there where the "outsiders" also go. their meetings are awesome.

and yes the disease will literally beg you to return. if you need to wait to get in you can always start going to meetings regularly where you live. can't remember if you're drug addicted or alcohol related. here's the site to find meetings in your immediate area for AA..
http://www.aa.org/lang/en/central_of...m?origpage=373
you can google NA and get a meeting list too. i know a lot of drug addicts who go to AA and stay clean so it doesn't matter which one you choose to go to.
hang with us here meantime...loads of great people in this forum. we're here to support each other and your having the willingness and desire to stop is one of the most important key elements for success.