So after my hypo stint of screwing everything up in my life, I got knocked down a couple notches where I've been for the last month, really bouncy, feeling really really good but confined to my house so I can do no damage. A few days ago, I tipped over the edge of feeling great to agitation. The next day a little more, the next day even more agitated and so on and so forth. So here I am pretty bad, rocking back n forth, toe tapping, knee bouncing, picking my finger skin 'til it bleeds, screamed today at my husband for no good damn reason, almost a craving to slap the s*** out of someone and the feeling lingers, impatient, you get the picture. And today my energy just slowed like woah. I don't want to do anything. I'm exhausted just thinking about taking a damn shower which I haven't gotten around to yet. But I know I gotta push myself and not let this crap control me anymore. I gotta do that laundry and take a shower by the end of the night. Slowed down and agitated is not a good combo. It's like taking all the bad things about me and throwing them at everyone around me all at once. I'm doing my best to contain it but this is just the beginning. Maybe, hopefully, I'll feel better tomorrow. My friend called me wanting to get the kids together tomorrow and hang. I had to fake an upbeat attitude over the phone. Normally, I'd be excited and happy to get together cause I haven't seen her in a while but with how I'm feeling, I'm kinda dreading it and I feel bad about it. At least I'll get out of the house and get some fresh air for a while. It'll be good for the kids to run around at the play ground and it'll be good for my sanity to catch up with an old friend. Maybe it's just what I need to snap out of this agitation crap. Thanks for reading and letting me treat this forum like a journal at times.