I can relate to you and know what you mean when you say all you can think about with money is how to spend it. BD and my other issues has wreaked havoc on my life, too. This is the best advice I can tell you for the immediate fix, but there is more to do (therapist,pdoc, meds, support groups, big talk with your husband to get him on your page, and the like): if you have a friend or family member you trust, give them the money to hold. I used to give my grandmother all of my money to hold and gave her a list of what had to be paid and when, just so I couldn't start lying to get money to blow on drugs or whatever else came to mind.