I love my work, absolutely adore it. I think it might be unhealthy, I have had to admit recently that I've been using my job to hide from my life. I am taking a big step to change it, but it scares the hell out of me. I've spent the past year as an over the road truck driver. It was so easy, alone for months at a time, rarely staying out less than 7 weeks between days off. Everyone telling me I needed to be home more. I just couldn't make myself do it. I would always let "something" come up and keep me out. That all changes Monday, I've taken a regional job where I'll be home every weekend and I'm scared to death that everyone is going to see what I've been hiding.