I do understans how you are feeling. Nothing you do makes it better
So what's the point of being here....

The point is this will pass and you'll come out on the other side a wiser person
And a better mom too. If you left now you would miss all those things
You used to dream about for your kids. Watching them become active adults
Watch them grow, get married and have your grandbabies.

Leaving before these events would be terrible. So hang in there. I know you'll feel betterd soon.

Hugs
It will get better.