Hi esther,

Do you have a therapist /counsellor /psychiatrist that you can talk to? I strongly urge that you talk to a therapist. Is there a way to avoid hospitalization by going to regular therapy?

The victims of abuse and PTSD forums may also be helpful to you here.

I agree with Mara, keep posting and writing...you are not alone.

Also, you are so young sweetheart, I really hope you don't feel too overwhelmed...there is always hope. Just one moment at a time, one breath at a time.

We're very happy to have you on the BPD forum. My best to you