I find that acceptance happens in stages, in pieces, not everything at once. I am now going through the stage of accepting that I cannot sleep without drugs - as you know, sleeping difficulties go hand in hand with bipolar. I thought I embraced my dx but it turned out, I was not ready for the realization that my brain is uncapable of shutting down on its own. After all, sleeping is such a natural function - you'd think it would be as easy as breathing but NO!