Hello my name is kris and this is my first post. I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago. Recently I found out the root of my depression is add. I feel releaved in one way but discouraged in another. For 10 years I have been dropping in and out of college trying to better myself. I feel extremly afraid to even try to better myself because the odds are so against me. If its not the add then its the depression that keeps me from wanting to go on. Sometimes I pray that God would just take me away. What do I have to look forward to? Low income, medication, being sad all the time. I am tired of feeling like such an unacomplished loser. The only person that keeps me grounded is my 7 year old daughter. She has put up with alot of my problems. I am a single mother and have been in two other relationships since I left her father and his abusive ways. I have got her hopes up of having a father figure in her life basically because I am drawn to people that like to control me. I am tired of this failing cycle I am in and just want to feel good.