Why do I become a monster to those who care about me? I rage and hurt their feelings; I HATE being this way!! How can I even think of having kids when they could turn out this way too. I've always been known as "eccentric" but I feel like know I'm officially the "crazy" lady. I know if my husband leaves me it will be my own fault because I can't seem to stop being a total ***** all the time. It's hard enough keeping it together at work, I don't know how I am suppose to deal with this for the rest of my life.