I am a virgin and have been craving sex for too long. I just want to experience it already, and I know a girl who might want to hook up with me. The only problem is, I don't know if I can go through with it. Of course when I am fantasizing about it and looking into the future, it just seems like hey, go for it! But when I actually think about doing it, it just feels so wrong and unnatural. I told myself I'd give myself a month to just live and see if anyone special comes into me life, and if not by then, call up this girl, so you can at least experience SOMETHING in college. I don't even know if I like this girl, I barely know her. I find her attractive, but I just don't know her. I feel like I SHOULD be texting/calling her to see what she is up to, but it just feels so unnatural, in that we met on facebook. I haven't communicated with her in over a month. We made plans of meeting once school started, and after I got rid of my facebook, we had no contact ever since, never exchanged numbers. I feel so rude to her, she probably hates me for this, and I don't blame her. I basically got her hopes up and just... disappeared...