Pretty simple. When I joined in 2009 I had just got out of a relationship with my beloved girlfriend, and I was still hurting over my Mom leaving. I had given up on everything, and pretty much life in general. The name just kind of clicked. I was alive and was physically here, but emotionally I was dead and in a dark place.

I remember that after a poem I wrote about my ex, a member here said "you got your name wrong, you are emotionally ALIVE!" Props to that member if she can remember it and remember me. That would be neat if you are still here! (It was years ago, I have a good memory too )