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Originally Posted by Passion222
BlueInnana--I actually blew up on my
Husband tonight. Words flew out like darts and vomit. Lol. He hardly acknowledged my unhappiness. Wtf is that? I swear I live with a dead tree. Ugh. It is a struggle. What to do?? I only got BP since married. Many people and therapist think I'm just bursting with emotions and my mood swings are ONLY related to this nutty life. Kinda like your scenario. So you've been able to be good. That's awesome. Are you dying to just go find what you need now??? I crave it. I have a tattoo on my back that's in Chinese and says Crave. Passion on my leg. Lol. The tats tell my life right?
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i've been irritable and losing my cool too often lately. i kept yelling tonight at my older son, even yelling that i love him but had a bad day and it's not his fault but he needs to step up and help with cleaning. i'm on edge, work sux right now...
but now the full moon is up and i want to go play! i want to go out and have fun, make new friends, i want a lover (just 1 lol). but i'll probably be good cuz i'm not exactly completely broke up yet with the bf. he has been out of town and i'm confused.
if you're wondering about the bp dx being correct or not, i go through the same thing all the time in my mind. i keep questioning, signs keep pointing to yes, but i've learned skills, and once i get my life in order and the kids ok, i'll be able to have something closer to the life i want.
i'm on a moon high
and i took a clonopin, ambien, benadryl and i'm still awake. ...sorry if i didnt answer what you were asking.
