My own experience with depression is very much like you describe. All those feelings you describe sound very familiar to me. I'm older, 42, and have dealt with depression since my teens. Didn't start getting treatment until my early 20s. I used to go off my meds once I started feeling better. It kept coming back. I finally realized I needed to stay on meds to keep it away. My brain chemistry is just wired towards depression I guess. It's not your fault, it's an illness. Most of society doesn't understand that yet, but it's an illness like anything else. And like any illness you have to treat it. I am glad you are here and posting.

When you were on the prozac was it better? Was life more managable? Maybe it's worth looking into getting back on meds if they worked before. Take care and keep letting us know how you are doing.