Wow, thank you so much for all the info. It does seem to make sense. My T also has told me that all the energy I spend ignoring the voices I could be using to listen to them. So all of this ranjg very true to me.
I sure hope that things will get better.

Last night was hard again. I had a part come out and he hurt me very bad. I almost went to the hospital but I didn't. I just tried to pay attention to what was going on inside. Well thanks again for the reply.

Jennifer