Thank you so much for the advice and the web address Tobey. It gives me hope to know that there are other people ine the same stuation who have survived this. I appreciate your reply more than I can say. Thank you for being so open and honest. Know that you have made a difference in my life, I don't know why, but as I read your reply I cried and I haven't cried in months. I've become emotionally "closed" and you have opened a door that I couldn't, but needed to.

Tanya