hugs to you! sorry you're feeling so awful. is it possible to make the most of your parents' money and transfer schools? it's not that uncommon to switch schools. perhaps you could find one closer to where your family is? sounds like you need some support from your friends and family and can't get it where you are currently at. anyone can choose a school thinking it's perfect but once you're actually in it, it may not mesh well. please look into other options--this one school isn't your only choice. xoxo