My car air conditioning has been running cool, not cold lately. I took it in today -- it'll cost over $1,050 to fix! There's no way I can afford that. I've been unemployed for 6 months. So, I get to sweat. Here we are, in the Los Angeles area (a desert), in the middle of summer, and my car air conditioning is dying. Figures. I'm so disappointed, I'm crying. There's no point in getting mad. That won't fix the AC.

The thing is, it hits me in the self esteem. I keep thinking, if I had been any kind of a success (at anything ), I'd have money in the bank and be able to fix the air conditioing. (Hell, I'd be able to move out of this miserable oven, as I so desperately want!)

So tiresome... Amazing how life never gets any better. It'll get worse, oh yes! But never better.