She has some form of mental illness and I have had her in therapy repeatedly but all she does is lie to the therapists and it never gets us anywhere! I dont know how u can be a professional therapist and get hoo dooed by a 13 yo into buying the whole poor poor pitiful me BS! She lost her father to cancer several yrs ago and she has had a chip on her shoulder since. Her dad wanted a daughter so bad- she was the first girl after we had 3 boys, so her dad spoiled her rotten! She acts like she is the only one who lost their dad! But all 7 of my older children did. The 2 younger ones really dont remember him but the five older ones miss him as much as she does. My 20 yo never touched drugs til his dad died and now he has a problem he battles daily. My 13 yo went off cussing my 22 yo like a sailor! When we punished her she broke down on a if my dad was still alive trip... She had me and my 22 yo crying. I was sobbing like a baby- I told her thanks to her dad's disease (his last yr and half he became a totally dif person- he went from being a wonderful man and father to a terrible person that refused to even buy a $5 pack of training pants for our youngest son- I was left raising them alone long b4 he passed away. He -once a minister- left me for a 21 yo stripper!) I lost him, her and my 20 yo. My 20 yo and I used to be so close and now he is a shadow of his old self. I literally ate xanax and cried til I knocked myself out last night and woke up today very teary.

Blue, sorry I haven't been around. This has been a very tough week for me school-wise.

I only saw the therapist yesterday, I see the p doc monday. I felt good when I first left the T, we set some great goals- #1- find a new motivator for myself (I think I have mentioned b4 my main motivator is guilt) but just a few hrs after leaving I kind of felt like the T had done surgery and opened up all my affected mental areas and just covered them up with a band aid and left them til monday...