I know it's not often helpful to tell someone who is depressed to try, try... but is it possible you can keep that dream of going abroad present and uppermost in your mind, and use it to get to class, which you must, of course, to get that degree. You say your GPA won't allow you to transfer, and you are a junior... but you are pretty close to getting that degree.

And if going abroad is a cherished dream of yours, you'll probably find a way later on to make it happen.

Best wishes and luck to you.