Nightsky--

I've really missed your posts, and I'm sorry that things have become so painful again, just when you were feeling safer.

I think of you as one of the wisest people here, and I really look up to you. And I trust that you'll be able to trust yourself to do what's best for you. And you're so tenacious and brave that I know healing will eventually come, whatever path to continue to take toward it.

That said, I know I don't get a vote, but I have always found your relationship with your T to be beautiful and inspiring. I hope you can continue to work together. You're a gift to him, and he's been a gift to you in the past. Of course you're under no obligation, except to yourself. Still, it seems like there's so much more potential growth with him, so I hope you can be as brave as you have been and continue with him. He's messed up a few times, but it really does seem like his heart is with you.

Take care, Nightsky. I hope you check back in when you can. There are lots of us here who really care about you and are rooting for you.