Tanya, what you've gone through sounds absolutely horrific. Take your time in trusting again: remember, there are trustworthy people, but understandably it will take time for them to earn your trust. You may find some relief by telling your T that there is something you need to discuss, but you're not yet ready. that can be an important first step.
Chalkdust, your situation is similarly horrific.
You've both endured horrendous events, but are dealing wtihh it so bravely.
Safe and gentle hugs for you both if ok.