yeah, what about that? I think that your T KNOWS it was really bad for you, Granite. Sh'es waiting for you to tell her. She won't be disgusted by you, nor will she think that letter is unimportant. But we can all tell you that, and you will only be able to see that if you hear it from your T. You are becoming stronger and stronger in your conviction to tell her. I know you will. Give yourself time. It is big, hard, scary stuff. Your T knows this, and this is why she is sticking with you.