A recent post on this forum prompted me to post. I have had an inner conflict with myself for most of my life. I know I am a contradiction as I am shy in public and afraid of makings stakes. I have lived with guilt since growing up an only child due to a situation that I blame myself for but know was beyond my control. I started feeling attraction to myself at a young age after I was told that I was clinically dead at birth and had to be revived Something triggered my thought process after learning this and it has ebbed and flowed since. I am attracted to women but have never had much luck with them. I have had compliments given to me by homosexual males which has aroused me to a point buying am not attracted to guys. But I attracted to my own body. I don't like being touched and this has negatively effected relationships for me as I feel I am not worthy of someone else's affection. What is wrong with me? I would like to conquer this once and for all... Thanks for listening...Nyone else ever have a similar experience?