Squiggle, I can relate so much to everything you said. My T told me the same thing, that if she thought hugs, etc would be therapeutic, then she would, but she doesn't. Then another time when it came up again, she said that if a client inititated a hug, she was not going to refuse. I have considered initiating, for example when she was gone out of the country recently for 2 weeks, but I feel like it wouldn't feel good in the end, because I feel like she would oblige me, but that it wouldn't be meaningful. It would be like, "Well, if you insist.". And I won't.

for you, though!