So sorry to hear you are still going through this with your T. I can imagine how shocking it must feel. I am going through some stuff with my T also that has me feeling that things are not at all like I thought they were all this time. We are ending and I wonder how I will go on. I hope things get worked out with your t and if not, I hope you can find another who you can connect with and trust. I believe when one door closes, another one will open and you might even have a better relationship with even more healing. Hang in there, my thoughts and caring are with you.