Squiggle, you are not a leper! I think I cared more about hugs when I thought I couldn't have one, that they were forbidden. After she hugged me once, I no longer cared much about them. I think talking about it might be helpful, just to get clarification on her boundaries. I felt like a leper until i found out that it wasnt true at all. My T isn't touchy-feely, so hugging isn't initiated by her, but we talked about it and she did hug me.