Even tho I know some of my past is the reason I'm the way I am now..apart of me feels like I could have done some extra measures to go in a better direction,, although having a baby at 13 kind of held me back...and being on my own since 14...I had a lot to bare. I want so badly to be able to get on meds and feel better ..but I'm a coward to my fear if meds.