I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I'd be really upset too if my T gave the impression she didn't allow hugs/touch and then it transpired she had contact with some clients. For me, it wouldn't matter whether it was initated by the client or her, it's still contact if T has allowed it. It sounds like you've been given completely different explanations and I hope your T can realise this and own how it has affected you. Maybe this could lead into a discussion of how contact can be managed between you, if that's what you want. T has a right to her boundaries re touch but you have a right to say what you feel about all this and what you've been told.