This might be a little hard to explain how I got to the point of writing on here,

Basically I've had a crappy childhood and my adult years have not been much better. At 26 and a single mother, I just finished yet another set of counselling.
I have been diagnosed with PTSD but lately I've been thinking it does fit with the flashbacks and nightmares, but some of it doesn't.
It was only after talking to a relatively new friend about her depression, and mentioning my experience with her did she say something unexpected....
Basically, At 18 I was diagnosed with depression. I disagreed. I had times when I was very happy and times when I was down. To me depression meant a black cloud that followed you around. Anyway, he put me on fluoxetine, which made me hyper and feeling out of control, so I took myself off them.
There have been periods where I have felt down and some would say depressed because I thought about suicide, but it never lasted more than a few months built up from being a little low to suicidal thinking, i never attepmted it though and then I was fine. Sometimes I'd go into overdrive, my mind would be constantly switched on.
My friend said that is bipolar not depression.
That was 2 weeks ago. I have been thinking about it, I had no idea what bipolar was. So I checked out bipolar on google and came to this site. I took the sanity questionaire, and it said PTSD, anxiety and bipolar were serious concerns. So I took the bipolar and mania quizzes. I scored quite highly. Then I started to think about it more.
Yes I spend lots of money when in overdrive. I think I have the next big book idea but get easily distracted after a shirt time and give up. Then I realise how stupid the idea is when I feel low.
My daughter is the product of a one night stand.
My thoughts race and I talk as fast as I think when in overdrive.
Could it be hypomania/mania, and could it be periods of depression rather than being a depressed person?

I'm so confused, it doesn't help that I was in overdrive last week when I went to see the community mental health nurse for just the second time. She wrote down
'racing thoughts, agitated, high anxiety, fast speech' and a few other things I couldn't make out.

I don't know what to think. I know I went to them for help sorting my head, but I thought it was the PTSD. I wasn't expecting anything else. And what do I say to her about it?


Sorry for going on...