I have a T who's been saying medications would help for a long time. I'm not on my own insurance, it's my fathers and he stops payment on psychiatrists because he 'doesnt believe in them'. The last one left me with a lot of stress and a big bill which luckily got smaller when I talked to the psychiatrist. So I can't get medication but I do want to and I have tried as much as I can I'm just still tied up with family health insurance and a controlling father.

No stable relatives to talk to but I have been talking to my T who has been available a lot to help me.
It's nice to know I'm not alone... but I can't imagine getting through this and I can't imagine it ending.