The racing thoughts and spending and the book ideas sound a lot like me when I was younger and not diagnosed yet. I get very speedy and agitated at times. I totally understand your description of overdrive. I also get so depressed sometimes that I can't even move except to go to the bathroom. I also get what they call mixed states where I feel everything at once. That is when it gets dangerous for me because I can get the self harm and sui thoughts, but have the energy to do something. I have never attempted, but I have harmed slightly.

The best thing I did was to seek help. It has been a long and difficult road for me, but I am feeling better and I am improving in my coping skills. I am by no means cured and don't think I ever will be. I even had somewhat of a mini episode this week.

Anyway, I am sharing all this to let you know that you are welcome here and will find lots of support when you post.

It might take time to find the right doctor for you, but if you can get in to see someone ASAP, and get on meds that is a good step. Also a good therapist can work wonders too. I got lucky and found the right therapist for me on the first try. On the other hand I have been through sever psychiatrists and finally have a good nurse practitioner for my medication management.

Welcome to Psych Central.