Everytime I tried to quit cutting I basically ended up trying to commit suicide out of the desperation to quit the cutting. The only way I made it through the first month was when I was desperate enough to commit suicide I would force myself to thow up until I was so exhausted I just laid on the bathroom floor and didnt have the energy to reach for pills.

What I did was probably not a good way of dealing with not cutting and caused issues that I had to overcome, but I probably would have never made it through that first month without dying or cutting had it not been for my choice.

Because my way of making it through that time could be dangerous and cause more issues for someone, I don't want to suggest using throwing up as a coping mechanism... however, it is an option... but one that could have a variety of consequences.

I don't know if any of that helped...
but I hope you find a way to get through this.