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Originally Posted by athena2011
I've noticed that I seem to be completely different around different people. Around my sister - like a submissive sibling who she continues to try to snuff out. Around my Mom - like the most unlikeable person on earth. Around my therapist - like an unchangeable pathetic disaster. Around my BF - like an actress playing the part required. Around friends who have 'immunity' to my changeable states of mind - they see all of me- the good and the bad. Around friends who I suspect cannot tolerate my moods - once again- the actress, showing only the best side. Around work colleagues - a confident success story.
I really have no idea which one of these people is truly 'me'. It's quite exhausting. Does anybody else here relate to this?
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Hi Athena,
It's clear from what you wrote that you're going insane. Do they have insane asylums in Canada? If they do you need to check yourself in like 2 weeks ago.
I think there is something to be pondered with the part that I bolded. They see ALL of you. So.. Apparently there is an "ALL of YOU". I don't believe in the "immunity" theory of yours. I think there is more to this. All these other people that don't see "All of you" do you idealize them more? Want them more? See them as being better than you? These people that do see "All of you" do you value them less? What is the "Full" you like around these people that see "All of you"? These kinds of questions go on and on and you may be able to learn something useful. It's something to think about imo.
I don't have a specific answer for you, but I "think" maybe you can learn something possibly from what you've written. If I was forced to give a more specific answer I guess I'd tell you to google Canadian Insane Asylums..
lol
I'm sure you know I jest!!!