I thought I was doing better. Anxiety and panic attacks got crazy out of control for a while due to some different things....thought things had calmed down and my med was increased to help me with anxiety. Now instead of anxiety I just have moments where Im simply down and out and crazy sad. I jsut wanna run away and be alone. Its weird. I have thought lately off and on about si and keep telling myself no because I know I will regret it! Stupid me! Earlier I thought about it and the thoughts wouldnt leave...my heart was pounding so hard and I was all amped and felt like I needed it! I HAD TO! I wanted it so bad I stopped caring and just did it and felt so relieved. Now I know it was dumb but geesh why does this happen?? I didnt even care. I just knew I wanted to and i felt so crazy so I did it.