Was making it through the day but out of no where the sadness, lonliness worthliness has come in the back door and anxiety is at the front. no where to hide and do not know what to do. really want to abuse the xanax that I keep saying I am going to dispose of. Called my T but did not sk for a call back. just don't want to destroy her evening. feeling so lost and don't know where to turn or if I can handle many more days like this. Giving up is always an option.