I have a best friend who has been there for me. She took me to the hospital, she was supportive to me while I there, and took me back home after 9 days. I have no close family or other friends to talk to. I have depression and anxiety. I am on meds and in therapy. I thought she understood the nature of the disease as she told me she studied it while I was in the hospital. We talk almost every day. She asked me how I felt today. I told her the crying spells were coming back for the past 2 days. She told me that everyone gets sad and that is a normal part of life. Then she told me I did not have enough faith in God. Then she gave me a "pep talk" about all I needed to do was change my negative thoughts, and I would not feel so bad. I felt demeaned, and my feelings are hurt. And I am angry with myself that I trusted her and let myself be open with her since people will always let you down.

I am working on changes. I went back to work last week since leaving the hospital. I left my apt both Sat and Sun (which I have a strong tendency to stay home) and got out. I am working on this. The meds seem to be helping also. I felt like she was telling me the depression is all my fault, and I just need to make changes. I am making changes, but maybe not up to her pace.

Thanks for listening,
Krissy