Hi guys, me again continuing with my diastrous session of last week.

I know I previously posted that I sent a long letter to my T and during session told her I wanted to finish. She didn't accept this and said I was making a decision whilst I was very angry. I left her office, not allowing her to open the door for me to leave, but I did say goodbye as I was leaving. She said see you next week same time Lonely. I said no you won't lol

Anyway, I sent the letter the next morning and hand delivered it to her office. She rang me that evening and left a message on my voice mail saying that she got the letter, appreciated it and would see me next Wednesday at the same time. PLEASE can someone tell me how can T appreciate a letter that had so much negative stuff in it about her. Thats my first question. Aswell, I really am getting very very anxious about going in on Wednesday (if I go). I keep arguing with myself. One minute I'm going to go, and the next minute I completely change my mind and say I'm not going. Can someone please TELL ME WHAT TO DO. T is going on two week vacation after this week.

I suppose there is nothing really anyone can say, I just wanted to get it out of my head, but I still can't make up my mind. I wish I wasn't so dependant on T I really do. I never wanted to be.

Have any of you ever had this problem, one minute your positive you'll go to session and the next minute you decide not to.

hugs x