For the past week or so, I have been feeling so damned irritable - feel it bubbling inside me . Every little task I have to do, just winds me up so much - and motivation leveling at zero!! Just thought today, maybe I have anger that I havn't dealt with? So, trying to connect with my inner self - am I angry? Yes I blo**y am.
Angry with my ex - just recently divorced, for lying and deceiving me - now happily off with another woman.
Angry with my circumstances, can't find work enough to support myself.
Angry with my lack of a support network - I could be dead for day's and no-one would know!
Angry - that I am 53yrs old, twice divorced now - and likely to spend rest of my life on my own.
Angry that I lost my mum 2 yrs ago, and all that went with that.
Angry with myself - for being down all the time, for finding life such a challenge, for losing my career - due to depression/anxiety.
Angry - Angry - Angry
Just needed to express it somewhere!