I think you can think on positive side on some of the things you stated above, in order to let go of your anger. For example, you have 51 years memories with your mother, unlike some people whose mother left/died when they were young (like mine was dead when I was 8); and you divorced your ex so you don't have to spend the rest of your life with this deceiving man, isn't that a good news? and being single can also have a good happy life, just depends on how you put it; with this economy nowadays, I think many people can relate to how you feel about money and jobs, it will get better. Hope you feel better tmr.