How hard it must be to feel so ill and hopeless all the time. Are you ill in the summer, too, or just when school is in session? Have you thought of going to school at home and working on your illnesses; it might be easier to work if you were not so tightly scheduled and could "go" to class in the evenings or middle of the night, times you felt better, etc. That wouldn't affect what college you could get into and maybe in the next couple of years, working with your doctor(s) your health issues could improve.